Rhiannon The Nightmare – Not In Love

… did a bit of filming last week. Rhiannon The Nightmare had their rehearsal and I filmed it.
Here’s the first song … Not In Love …


Secular/ Atheist Friendly Music #2

So here it is part two.

FIRST AID KIT – Hard Believer

I went to see them earlier this week and they were amazing.  Still don’t understand what happened to people not dancing at gigs any more but there you go.  Anyway they didn’t play Hard Believer (although they did play covers of America and Love Interruption which made me a bit over-excited) but I forgive them.

Well I see you’ve got your bible your delusion imagery
Well I don’t need your eternity or your meaning to feel free
I just live because I love to and that’s enough you see
So don’t come preach about morality that’s just human sense to me

Love is tough, time is rough
Love is tough, time is rough on me
On me, on me

And it’s one life and it’s this life and it’s beautiful


This isn’t the obvious Tim Minchin song to put in an atheist/ secular playlist, after all there are so many to choose from, but the line: And it’s one life and it’s this life and it’s beautiful of Hard Believer leads me to post Storm.

A 10 minute + beat poem in which Tim argues with a hippy named Storm he comes out with this line which I LOVE and quote almost too often:

Isn’t this enough?

Just this world?

Just this beautiful, complex
Wonderfully unfathomable, NATURAL world?
How does it so fail to hold our attention
That we have to diminish it with the invention
Of cheap, man-made Myths and Monsters?


Ok – it’s just the opening part really – but it’s a classic – do I need to say anything else?

Jesus died for somebody’s sins but not mine
Meltin’ in a pot of thieves
Wild card up my sleeve
Thick heart of stone
My sins my own
They belong to me, me

GERSHWIN – Ain’t Necessarily So

It ain’t necessarily so
It ain’t necessarily so
The t’ings dat yo’ li’ble
To read in de Bible,
It ain’t necessarily so.


Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses

My song of choice for stomping home …

Unfortunately ‘Storm’ isn’t on Spotify … but there will be a couple of other Tim Minchin tracks in this list!
I’ve also made the playlist collaborative if anyone’s interested in posting their suggestions?

I think this atheist is going to church tomorrow …

… don’t ask why, because I’m going to tell you.

I’ve been a form tutor to my tutor group for 4 1/2 years and they’re about to leave this summer 😦  One of my tutor group, let’s call him J, has been a pain in my ass for many of those 4 1/2 years, but I have a lot of time for him, despite his annoyances.  Not just him, but the rest of his family too.  I’ve taught his older sister, it looks like I’m about to teach his younger brother, and I’ve known his mum well for all those years.

Recently, at a parents’ evening his mum asked for my phone number again because she wanted to ‘take me out’.  At another parents’ evening she said she was going to take me out THIS Sunday – ‘we’ll meet some people, have some chats and then go for a drink.’

Hmmm, now I know the family are EXTREMELY religious and J and I have had MANY conversations about my beliefs, or indeed, my lack of them.  In fact we’ve had many heated discussions about how being gay isn’t a choice (he came back and said he was 85% convinced that my argument was correct – as much as he hated to admit it).  Anyway, I guess he’s gone home and discussed this with his mum and YET AGAIN people have decided they need to save my soul.

So will I go?  At the moment I’m undecided, it depends on what happens tonight (if anything).  I’d like to, as I like the family and I think that as much as I don’t agree with their belief system, I do think that I have to show that I am as open-minded as I ask believers to be.  However, I am nervous.  How do I do it without laughing the whole way through the service?  Without rolling my eyes, tutting or simply bursting into flames as I walk through the church door?  How am I ‘polite’ yet ‘firm’ that I cannot be converted?  That I’ve been there and done that?

It’s a conundrum … perhaps I need to listen to my ‘secular playlist’ some more for inspiration.

Secular music #1

… this idea made me laugh when I thought about it.  I’ve read so many Christian blogs about ‘Christian-friendly’ music so I thought I’d write a list of my favourite songs that question God and religion. I’m apparently not the first to do this (surprise surprise) but hopefully there are a few songs in here that aren’t on all of the other lists (although I do love ‘Imagine’ by Lennon and ‘Dear God’ by XTC I decided not to add them as they are on EVERY other list out there!). Also, this isn’t in ‘order’.  The order is random, as are my music tastes.

DEPECHE MODE – Blasphemous Rumours

Yeah yeah yeah this is on virtually every other list out there but this was the first song that I ever heard that questioned god. I was 11 when this came out and I didn’t really understand it properly for a couple of years.  I’d been sucked into a crazy evangelical church and I was going through a hard time at school.  Some events happened, the church told me to burn my copy of this song, and I suddenly decided: ‘fuck you god’.  This song helped me through that.

“I don’t want to start
Any blasphemous rumours
But I think that God’s
Got a sick sense of humour
And when I die
I expect to find Him laughing”


You’d expect a band with ‘preachers’ in the name to have at least one song which is ‘atheist-friendly’.  Crucifix Kiss is one of my favourite MSP songs anyway, let alone the fact that it criticises organised religion.

“Christen me fuhrer Nazarene
Believe in tomorrow but not today
Give me all your possessions

Make poverty your perfect home
Allow your leaders to control you
Questions are now blasphemy

Why walk when you can crawl
Stay on your knees and kiss my feet”

NEW MODEL ARMY – Christian Militia

I doubt anyone would be surprised that New Model Army have an anti-organised religion song.  I chose Christian Militia because I was listening to it the other day and it sparked this blog.

“There’s a nightmare coming
Shut up your doors close your mind
There’s a nightmare coming
Born again, born again blind”

VOLTAIRE – God Thinks 

I cannot explain how much I love Voltaire – his lyrics always make me laugh.

“God thinks the Sun revolves around the Earth
God thinks there was something very wrong with Copernicus
God thinks abortion is murder and
God thinks everything that science gave us is wrong
God thinks women deserve it
God thinks AIDS is a form of punishment
I hate people who blame the Devil for their own shortcomings and
I hate people who thank God when things go right

And I, I know what God thinks
God thinks you’re an idiot
God prefers a heretic”

BAD WOLF – Their Religion

Luckily my new ‘band crush’ have a song that questions organised religion too!  Their Religion is a thumping, driven tune that makes me smile whenever I hear it.

No Youtube link for this but you can listen to the song here: https://ukbadwolf.bandcamp.com/track/their-religion

“Too quick to contradict
Uncertainty is a plague for us all
But I can’t accept that laws we set in stone back then
Will prevent our downfall

Cos I see that’s all been a bluff
For we’ve never felt love from up above
We shouldn’t be scared by the things that they tell us
Cos they all live in sin

Faith, who are you trying to save
Too much time for hate”

NIN – Terrible Lie

There are so many NIN songs to choose from but to end this part of the blog I’m going to choose ‘Terrible Lie’.  A song that constantly questions god’s existence.  I remember listening to this a few years after I’d left the church and it helped me cope with those moments when you do want to believe but your sane, logical side tells you that a god cannot exist.

“you made me throw it all away.
my morals left to decay.
how many you betray.
you’ve taken everything.

terrible lie.
my head is filled with disease.
my skin is begging you please.
i’m on my hands and knees.
i want so much to believe.”

I’ve got more to post but does anyone have any others to add?

Here’s the playlist on Spotify that I’ve started … I’ll update it with every post then make it collaborative 🙂

Playhard – Penguins Rising, The Valves, Bad Wolf, The Winachi Tribe and Tony Steele and the Massacre

Friday 23rd January – The Phoenix

The full gallery can be found here:


A splendid night of fun and frolics with the Playhard crowd.

Penguins Rising





The Valves





Bad Wolf





The Winachi Tribe




Tony Steele and the Massacre




We Are Exploding in Film Art Music Entertainment

Much love for The Zine


December 2014 – Chapter 3/Number3 is already creating new futures: Quite a bit of it in London, where some of The Zine team are based. With our Chapter 1 talents raising their profile within a year, the power of under radar music is proven. Freshly uploaded, Chapter 3 makes Spring/Summer 2015 buzz in advance. True movement.

IMG_2177Starting a live music venue from scratch at Number3London; as we are setting up, is that Bruno Wizard of The Homosexuals or Jimmy Johnson of CuT with our music editor, Dizzy Spell?

29 bOn that evening (Friday 5th December), four inspirational bright young things came together; (left to right) Film creative, Elisabeth Rasmussen, musician/promoter/radio presenter Jean Genie Graham, musician/dj Kalamity Kate and photographer, Polly Harvey who is one of The Zine’s Chapter 3 photographers.

Number3Live Sessions are go. Soon after, Chapter 1 cover stars, Rhiannon The Nightmare play live with James Fisher (who also does a photo session…

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I have a lot of what some would call ‘tat’ in my life … I call them my ‘treasures’ or indeed ‘tomorrow’s antiques’.  I thought I would document them all as there has to be one day when I let them go.  I need to ‘downsize’ and to clear my clutter; so this is going to document the plastic fantastics that are part of my life and are perhaps soon to be moved on to maybe a more loving home.

Today is my Hit Girl bobble-head.

16075987295_e2651903c4_oI love this bobble-head – Hit Girl is one of my favourite film characters – not just because she dropped the ‘c-bomb’.  Unfortunately, she also holds too many memories for me.

Mainly because of this scene and this name.  B used to call me ‘baby doll’ … and although it wasn’t my favourite ‘pet name’, it was the name he gave me.  I even had a Kick Ass t-shirt with ‘Good Call Baby Doll’ on it.  I gave it back to him when I packed his stuff up – I couldn’t bear to wear it again.

But I like this bobble-head … *sigh* … what to do? What to do?  I don’t know whether to get rid or keep.

Anyone want to make me an offer?!?!