I think this atheist is going to church tomorrow …

… don’t ask why, because I’m going to tell you.

I’ve been a form tutor to my tutor group for 4 1/2 years and they’re about to leave this summer ūüė¶ ¬†One of my tutor group, let’s call him J, has been a pain in my ass for many of those 4 1/2 years, but I have a lot of time for him, despite his annoyances. ¬†Not just him, but the rest of his family too. ¬†I’ve taught his older sister, it looks like I’m about to teach his younger brother, and I’ve known his mum well for all those years.

Recently, at a parents’ evening his mum asked for my phone number again because she wanted to ‘take me out’. ¬†At another parents’ evening she said she was going to take me out THIS Sunday – ‘we’ll meet some people, have some chats and then go for a drink.’

Hmmm, now I know the family are EXTREMELY religious and J and I have had MANY conversations about my beliefs, or indeed, my lack of them. ¬†In fact we’ve had many heated discussions about how being gay isn’t a choice (he came back and said he was 85% convinced that my argument was correct – as much as he hated to admit it). ¬†Anyway, I guess he’s gone home and discussed this with his mum and YET AGAIN people have decided they need to save my soul.

So will I go? ¬†At the moment I’m undecided, it depends on what happens tonight (if anything). ¬†I’d like to, as I like the family and I think that as much as I don’t agree with their belief system, I do think that I have to show that I am as open-minded as I ask believers to be. ¬†However, I am nervous. ¬†How do I do it without laughing the whole way through the service? ¬†Without rolling my eyes, tutting or simply bursting into flames as I walk through the church door? ¬†How am I ‘polite’ yet ‘firm’ that I cannot be converted? ¬†That I’ve been there and done that?

It’s a conundrum … perhaps I need to listen to my ‘secular playlist’ some more for inspiration.